Once a fat girl, always a fat girl?

Today I've found myself referring to myself as a fat girl. 

My journey so far has consisted of a lot of physical changes but a shed load of mental changes too. 

Trying to convince my brain I can do xyz etc. but just as I'm not "there" physically, neither am I mentally. 

I still feel massively overweight, self conscious, awkward etc 

I know I've lost a lot of weight. I know I am fitter than I've ever been, I know I'm to toning up but I still feel and act like a fat girl. 

I wonder how long it takes to change your own view of yourself? Or will I always feel like a fat girl, ready to slip back to bad habits at any moment?

I hope not. 

H x